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[May. 18th, 2008|04:42 pm] |
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i want out. not like eating a bullet like Kurt Kobain, maybe Witness Protection out.
kinda want to leave good old Joseph behind and feel the freedom of being somebody else. do ya think that i would act any different if i was given that kind of out? could i really reinvent myself like that?
i'd like to think i could.
see it as role playing on a big scale. I am playing the part of Daniel Witwicky, a stranger in town that likes the new scenery and the girls are not half bad.
i kinda wish i could see something a mobster didn't want me to and let me run off to Canada and live in Winnipeg.
nobody knows me- yet, and i could spend years just seeing everything there.
i don't know if it is just me being emotional (a lonely day got worse when people showed up) or angry about my health; i just feel these days like i absolutely hate Joseph here and wish i could make him go away. like to be someone else and a nicer person at that.
at times i am a good person, so don't tell me i am. just lately, i am worse more often than not. |
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| James Van Praagh, Sylvia Browne and John Edwards |
[May. 15th, 2008|05:37 pm] |
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i have a list of people i hate more than the Devil himself and usually, it is a categorical thing; namely pedophiles, people with authority that manipulate others, bullies, that kind of thing. and then there is the spiritual con artists.
I was watching Dr. Phil today and he had the balls to validate, to give the benefit of the doubt to James Van Praagh. Dr. Phil had another guest who was addicted to psychics, telling him that almost anythin from what to have for dinner to job hunting, she calls psychics. she claimed she had 18 of them at one time milking her of her money.
And with James Van Praagh in a chair next to him, Dr. Phil told her they were scammers, cons, crooks and she needed to stay away.
With one of them sitting next to him on the stage.
Praagh, Sylvia Browne, John Edwards do not talk to dead people, they don't see a damn thing other than suckers and emotional saps that will lead to one thing- money.
for an expert, Dr. Phil couldn't see the Phishing the man did on the audience. I see someone's brother....liked music a lot....name starts with....a consonant.....he had blood in his body.... from there, the man narrows things down as the audience, hoping to talk to a dead loved one so bad, gives him cues, then clues and in time, he has enough to con them.
i will not do anything to question a person's faith- i won't call them out, even if i doubt 200 percent of their beliefs. But i cannot stand for cold readers who prey on emotions.
Sylvia Browne is beyond evil. people come to her wanting to know if their dead daughter suffered, or where their lost loved ones are, or begging her to help bring closure to a painful nightmare, and she leads them on. She has been busted on air so many times for being wrong, has been challenged by the skeptics and she balks.
And John Edwards is just as bad, and i reject him as well.
do i blast them for doing satanic things or practicing witchcraft? no. it is not my place. But as a human being with a compassionate heart, i condemn them for using parlor tricks to steal from people in a vulnerable state. |
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| March Of Dimes fundraiser- and pics |
[Apr. 28th, 2008|01:27 pm] |
This past Friday and Saturday, i woke up at an ungodly hour and helped Chris with his pet project for the March of Dimes. It was a charity walk- people showed up and after some speeches, food and drink, they hiked along a 2 mile nature trail at the edge of the Troy U. Dothan campus. I had some trouble taking pictures in the sun- couldn't see the screen (makes me wish all cameras had an old fashioned viewfinder) but i hope you like these shots.
we actually had about 200-300 morea attend than last year. the sun was out (contrary to the Weather Channel prophets' guessing) and it went from a gorgeous, chilly 65-70 to the mid 80s in no time.
Gotta give Chris some credit- he was the brains of this and he handled almost all the hiccups that mprning rather well.
Since i was a volunteer worker, i didn't get a chance to shoot the ribbon cutting at the trail start.
 These guys were playing a round of Redneck Golf.
 and a bean bag toss.
i never got a chance to hop up on this thing- the rock climb and slide at the end was so awesome that at least three kids had to be rescued. (maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaa, Don't wannnnna Slide! it'll kill meeeeeeee! - honest, one tyke screamed that from the top after begging to get on it. love kids, don't ya.?)
but it wasn't until after the walk and we had to start clean up that i got my favorite pictures. and i hope Wendi likes these:
 I loved how the trail was glittering with shadow and light and not at all scary. The small white mile marker helped, too.
 I took this one while riding in the back of a golf cart along the trail and am pleased thet it wasn't blurred as bad as i thunk.
and chris toook a pic of me as i was pulling garbage detail on the trail
And lastly, i finally figured out that Windows Movie Maker is retardedly simple and you have to treat it as such. This was my second video- my first is okay, but i like this one more. gonna work on a couple more and will post them here when i am done.
later kids!
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| Reversal of Darwinian Law |
[Apr. 5th, 2008|01:30 am] |
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Bear Sterns.
5th largest investment bank in the world imploded.
That should be a headline with today's economy.
But to read that Congress is giving them Billions to save the company should not be a headline because it should never happen.
it is called Darwinian Law, where if you are fast, smart, got teeth and claws or some neat trick to outlast the others, you get Spock telling you to live long and prosper.
and until recently, that is what Bear Sterns did with "stay out" attitude towards everybody else on the block. If a college had ivy growing on the lawn (does that make Kudzu U. an Ivy leaguer?) BS would hire their brightest MBAs and put them in NASA like think tanks to do one thing....make money.
Well, they screwed the pooch and the numbers didn't match, and yet the NASA analogy still applies. Billions of dollars is blown on a failed mission, the government writes it off and we get a bill on the 15th of this month saying, "We need YOUR money NOW."
Bear Sterns was number 5, but the old number 6 has taken that spot and Bear Sterns should be nothing more than a red flag or a trivia question on the 2000s edition of Trivial Pursuit.
But lets keep going.... Protestors showed up at BS to vent. But they did not rage against saving the jobs of overpaid accountants and market prognosticators; they demanded that they get a slice of the pie, too.
Do you know what credit card companies charging me 30 percent on my balance tell me when i whine about not being to pay them off any faster than i could have paid off a HumVee? We don't care as long as we get something.
so why should our government who doesn't care about people trying to make ends meet on 6 bucks per when gas is almost 4 per gallon, why should they feel like they need to bail the couple who grossed 400k last year but spent 2.8 million- all on credit?
What do you call a T-Rex with no teeth? to Darwin, he is extinct, doomed, a failed attempt. to our leaders, it is a protected species needing tons of grants and financial aid and 90 dollar a pound ground round to get by.
a pity. |
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| 2 for you... |
[Feb. 6th, 2008|02:44 am] |
1.)
here's a story in your eyes
I can see the hurt behind your smile
For every sign I recognize
Another one escapes me
Let me know what plagues your mind
Let me be the one to know you best
Be the one to hold you up
When you feel like you're sinking
Tell me once again
What's beneath the pain you're feeling
Don't abandon me
Or think you can't be saved
I walk beside you
Summon up your ghost for me
Rest your tired thoughts upon my hands
Step inside this sacred place
When all your dreams seem broken
Let's remain inside this temple
Let me be the one who understands
Be the one to carry you
When you can walk no further
Tell me once again
What's below the surface bleeding
If you've lost your way
I will take you in
I walk beside you
Wherever you are
when everything is wrong
when hopelessness surrounds you
the sun will rise again
The time you sweep against will carry you back home
So don't give up
Don't give in
I walk beside you
Wherever you are
Whatever it takes
No matter how far
Through all that may come
And all that may go
I walk beside you
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2.)
There was no time for pain
No energy for anger
The sightlessness of hatred
slips away
Walking through winter streets
alone
He stops and take a breath
With confidence and self-
control...
I look at the world and see no
understanding
I'm waiting to find some sense
of strength
I'm begging you from the
bottom of my heart to show
me understanding
I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to
my knees
And I lay here drained of
strength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth
The way your heart sounds
makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure
the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
makes all the difference
In learning to live
Here before me is my soul
I'm learning to live
I won't give up
Till I've no more to give
Listening to the city
Whispering its violence
I set out watching from above
The nights bring new questions
New solutions to be found
I fell in love to be let down
Once again we dance in the
crowd
At times a step away
>From a common fear that's all
spread out
It won't listen to what you say
Once you're touched you stand
alone
To face the bitter fight
Once I reached for love
And now I reach for life
Another chance to lift my life
Free the sensation in my heart
To ride the wings of dreams
into changing horizons
It brings inner peace within my
mind,
As I'm lifted from where I've
spilt my life
I hear an innocent voice
I hear kindness, beauty and
truth
The way your heart sounds
makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure
the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
makes all the difference
In learning to live
Spread before you is your soul
So forever hold the dreams
within our hearts
Through nature's inflexible
grace
I'm learning to live |
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